Lately I have felt a little off. I”m not sure if it”s lingering from the holidays, having lot”s of friends visiting lately or processing all the energy that seems to be speeding up in and around me.
Anyway, I noticed that I have been out of some of my regular routines, including my personal goal to blog once a week. Coming back into my routines feels much better, though at times it”s seems like two steps forward and one step back. After taking two steps forward, last night, I guess was the step back! I had a bit of a fight with my kitchen, or really with the food in it. It was one of those nights that no matter what I ate, I wasn”t satisfied….Huge bowl of popcorn, bowl of frozen mangos, healthy Oreo”s, chips and salsa, some nuts, ect. This battle with the kitchen lasted for a couple of hours and when I went to bed my stomach was uncomfortably full and my mind was not very kind to myself. I heard things like, “you should know better, why didn”t you stop at the popcorn?, it”s not good to eat so much, ect.” Being in a practice of “watching” my thoughts I did sneak in a few positive thoughts as well, but the negatives ones were way more dominate.
Interestingly, when I got up in the morning this quote from Ester and Jerry Hicks was waiting for me to read.
“Cravings are going to occur to you. So here”s the rule of thumb about eating, or about investing in the stock market, or about anything else: casino If the impulse comes from a joyous thought that feels good, follow it. If the impulse comes from an uncomfortable thought that felt bad, don”t follow it”
It reminded me to pay attention as I get the cravings and make sure I have my intuition turned ON as much as possible. Yesterday, in the early evening, for example, I had just gotten a massage. Could I have asked my body in the moment, what it wanted? Was some nutrient depleted? Was I really thirsty, not hungry? Did I just need an evening of comfort food without guilt?
Being more conscious around those cravings by investigating or listening to myself more. Of course, there are a lot of emotions and feelings around food, but can I trust that if I could just stop and take just a few seconds and listen, to myself, my body, I do have the “right” answer for myself in that moment? This listening is a practice, so I tried not to get too caught up on over eating and was open to looking for the positive in last night. I found a few things, with the big one being that it motivated me to write this blog!
Another step forward…….